Showing posts with label music. Show all posts
Showing posts with label music. Show all posts

1.22.2010

experiment

So I just downloaded the Bats for Lashes album I never got around to downloading last year and I also got a Lookbook song I've been fiending on Youtube and all this indie is giving me that weird feeling where I feel like I need to create something amazing to exist in the same world as Natasha Khan and Grant Cutler. It's strange, my best works tend to be tied to the moments in my life where something shakes me on a sensory level. I might see something happen on the street, or I might smell a scent that blooms into a story in my head in a v. Proust-like way, or in this case I receive an auditory jolt so stimulating that it's like my imagination has taken Ritalin and cannot stop wandering. It happened when I first listened to Emily Haines & The Soft Skeleton, My Brightest Diamond, and it's happening now.

I remember wandering the University Bookstore one afternoon last year when I hadn't much else to do and I somehow stumbled upon the Belle Lettres section. I remember this one author popped an LSD or two and had written an autobiography of a moment as he lapsed into hysterics. It reminds me of this study conducted by the government with patients on acid and their progressive drawings:



My mind is racing like panel six. What's sad though is that days from now, after this high from this beautiful music has worn off, I will do as panel nine decrees:

"I have nothing to say about this last drawing, it is bad and uninteresting, I want to go home now."

10.27.2009

sigh

The world falls apart, slowly but surely. I know it's really lame, emo and cliché to blog about how depressed you are, but it's a little hard not to be down. I cursed PT today and really reflected hard about why the heck I was in this program. It took every ounce of will I had in my tired, tired body to come to school for 8 AM this morning. Why should I be up till 2 AM working on a 20% project that's due in the next day when it is supposed to be an "in-class assignment"? I stormed out of anatomy lab today because I knew nothing, picked up a soy caramel macchiato and felt a little bit better.

On another note, the CBC Literary Awards deadline is coming up, and I still have nothing left to submit. Last year I put through a short story about an obese girl with a ventromedial hypothalamic lesion but didn't make the short list. I was hoping to enter something this year but nothing I write is within the 2000-2500 word range...more like the 100-200 word range. I mean first prize is $6000, and that money could be going towards my wedding...

I wish I had more time.
This really sucks.

At least the good thing about being down is that you resort to the habits that pick you up. I did a project last year on music and motor control (sensorimotor integration) but one thing I read about a lot in the literature was sensoriaffective integration, that is that music is able to easily influence your emotional centers. Whether or not there is an auditory cortex connection with the amygdala and other limbic structures matters not (there are...) - it's the phenotype that I really care about on a day-to-day basis, because the moment you get sad you look for a pick me up.

When I feel stupid I listen to Regina Spektor and Sarah Slean. When I feel cool I listen to Cool Calm Pete, Lupe Fiasco, and The Cool Kids. When I feel hipster I listen to Emily Haines, Metric, Kate Havenevik, Priscilla Ahn. When I feel old school I always listen to Nas' Illmatic. When I study I listen to Imogen Heap. Today, I listened to Radiohead and Metallica because I was angry and needed motivation to not be down.

So in the words of James Hetfield:

These days drift on
Inside a fog
It's thick and suffocating

His sinking life
Outside it's hell
Inside, intoxicating

He's run aground
Like his life
Water much too shallow

Slipping fast
Down with his ship
Fading in the shadows


-Metallica(The Unforgiven III)

8.31.2009

paranoid android



Ah, Radiohead. Paranoid Android has long been touted as one of the greatest songs of all time which is both accurate as it is controversial. You either love Radiohead, or you love to hate them.

Anderson & Roe are a duo of Julliard graduates who've come together to create something quite magical, taking their inspiration from one of the most magical bands of all time. That being said, their rendition of Paranoid Android is no amateur-hour David Sides creation, but a well thought out and intelligently contrived work of art.

I've long loved the idea of a Paranoid Android that doesn't understand where it stands. Half-human, half-robot; it attempts to resolve the human condition and the robot one as well. It wonders aloud the arguments of Searle, whether it truly is more than just a Chinese Room, and if its emotions and understandings of reality are true. Is his consciousness the product of neural networks, or the circuitry of his motherboard? Does it matter?

Notice the following:
~0.43 - Parallel lines cascading upwards in a reverse harmonic waterfall
~2.20 - Paranoia. Exchange of lines between pianos with frequent changes in dynamics.
~3.20 - Controlled chaos.
~4:05 - An elbow? Why not! Unleash thy anger toward the world!
~5:40 - The Android's lament.

What a fantastic ending! Rolling chords, chaotic firings as if it never truly understands its identity. This is simultaneous pianistic virtuosity and identity confusion. Run, android - and learn to understand who you are like Sonny tried to understand himself.

(The original, if you'd like to compare)

8.25.2009

doctors and doodles

Had a rather busy day at work today catching up since I took Monday off. I distinctly remember sitting in my desk wallowing in misery as I thought about what I would post about later that night.

Luckily for me, I had the good fortune of hopping into Mag's family's car and riding with them to the house of Dr. McPhee, founder of the Cross Cancer Institute. Dr. McPhee is an interesting fellow. He's an extremely unassuming guy, like one of those older gentlemen that pops into good old Tim Hortons for a nice Conservative black coffee. He talks of the old days playing the piano in the dark in the nurse's dormitory and singing tenor at Westminster Abbey, all the while clasping his hands in a Montgomery Burns-esque contemplative manner. He maintains constant eye contact with you while he chats unless he's thinking of something, and loves his wife Beverley very much.

On first glance, you'd never think he was anything special. I've grown quite fond of this characteristic that insanely smart individuals have - they seem to fly under the radar, demonstrate their greatness in their actions, and only occasionally showcase their brilliance in ephemeral glimmers. Dr. McPhee is surprisingly common until we start getting him to talk about his art. He paints landscapes using one shade of acrylic paint to formalize his base, a planning stage he says takes about an hour and a half and results in him being able to tell exactly how the picture will turn out. This hour and a half is a frenzy of inspiration, and then the rest of the time he spends churning out the painting slowly, adding acrylic and oil to capture a place in the world and put it on his wall. He has talent with painting the right sort of light and has a strange fascination with wave clouds.

Dr. McPhee constructs things. He built his glider, which he says he's reached 30,000 feet in and has a 55 ft. wingspan. He talks of building machines for the CCI like surgical lasers. I think what impresses me the most about what he builds is his assembly of musical notes.

He has this uncanny ability to only be able to play the piano by ear. He says this shamefully as if it's a downfall, but I think he's part of a dying breed of musicians. He's embarrassed by his pocketbook with common musical phrases translated to English and explanations of note length values. While this education is important to be able to understand the musical standard of today, I find that too often pianists become regimented into RCM exams and end up as blasé musical products with no imagination or style. Along with his trusty cocker spaniel sidekick Brad, Dr. McPhee seats himself at his Yamaha C6 and gingerly extracts notes that sprinkle delicately off the walls in his back studio with solid acoustics. He plays the Beatles' Yesterday, careens into an excerpt of Rachmaninoff's Second Concerto 3rd Mvt., and rounds it all off with a loopy rendition of Puccini's Nessun Dorma aria from Turandot. The most fascinating thing is that Dr. McPhee is completely absorbed in his music. His eyes are closed, he's dreaming of eighths and quarters cascading onto a staff laden with emotion. He makes these abrupt and strange pauses and I think his style is a mixture between three Ds: Debussy, Disney, and Dickinson.

I love fascinating people for obvious reasons. I cannot wait to see what Dr. McPhee will be up to the next time I meet him, but I hope to have my eyes opened to different perspectives of the worlds I travel in. I thought I knew music until I saw music from the ear and not from the eyes; from the heart and not from the head. I thought I was starting to understand what people saw in art until he showed me a new way to look at paintings through Renaissance-era techniques pioneered by Michelangelo. Today I experienced beauty in simplicity, and I think I enjoy it very much.