problems

I've been having issues lately with keeping up with things. I feel like my initial gung-ho nature surrounding the first few weeks of school has been washed away, and I'm finding it difficult to keep up the same work ethic. Obviously my blogging has been dying a little bit, which is also partly due to my inability to reflect on life lately. I find myself a little bit empty with nothing relevant or interesting to say. It's dejecting.

Today was the first day back after a two-day running hiatus. Two days doesn't really make a difference all the things considered, but I think just being away for a little bit made me realize how important this hobby of mine is to my well-being. I feel better psychologically if not physiologically (Mag believes it's mostly the former) - my energy and focus are just fantastic today. I cleaned my room today after watching it get messier for the last few days, wallowing in amotivation. I finished my assignment in record time, I cleaned my water bottle, and got caught up on all the news that had been passing me by the last few days. I prayed today.

I think I'm hitting a rut, and it's difficult to keep going. I'm going to try to push through, holding onto all the things that make me happy. Hobbies, friends, God - you are my anchor. Hold me steady.

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