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I had this dream last night where all I did was stand in front of the bathroom mirror at the gym and try to correct my posture. I would do as Dr. Magee taught us: "Suck, squeeze and squeeze", as in suck your stomach in with your abs, squeeze your ass with your glutes, then pull up your pelvic floor. This should correct your pelvis so that you achieve your slightly anterior pelvic tilt (no more than two fingers between your ASIS and PSIS), and if you tuck your chin in properly you should reach a proper alignment.

I knew this, and yet no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't do it properly. My ear, acromion and iliac crest wouldn't align, and then when I got that I looked to the front and I had this horrible deviation in my midline. I'd fix that so my nose, sternum and umbilicus would line up, but then I'd turn to look at my back and I had this raging scoliosis. I'd bend forward to see if it was just dynamic but then when I stood back up to look in the mirror I suddenly had a torticollis. I'd stretch out my sternocleidomastoid but then I found out one of my legs was longer than the other.

It was endless. Here I was, cornered in the inner cloisters of the locker room debilitated by my postural inadequacies. I woke up finally and stretched out, happy to be within the warm confines of my bed. I didn't look in the mirror when I showered this morning.

I interpret it like this. There are many things wrong with my life right now that are static, like my posture. They just happen - I know they are there and I do try to correct them from time to time but they are just habits, things that I have done and will haunt me for the rest of my life. I will progressively try to alter them but it's all that I can do.

When they truly bother me, I make an active, focused effort to try to right them. I fix one thing, only to have something else tumble on me since my focus has led me to neglect other aspects of my life. My shift in concentration leads me to forget about another thing, and pretty soon all these things add up. I start to become frustrated, to lose my balance, and life tumbles down on me. Unfortunately this is real life, not a dream, so this isn't something I can wake up from. I need to change things slowly, gradually. So whilst I do this, have patience.

Rome wasn't built in a day. Trite but true, even for me.